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I (M23) go to university in Illinois and here I met my wonderful boyfriend (M25). We've been together for almost 3 years now and we're even considering marriage sometime in the future. Now before I get into the current situation, I need to give some context.
When I was a high school sophomore, I had come out to some of my close friends as pansexual and this ended up being discovered by my mom when she was looking through my phone. She didn't tell me about it right away but the next morning when I woke up both of my parents didn't talk to me and just ignored. Eventually my mom told me and I had to sit through them basically lecturing me about my own sexuality and what's "morally correct." Eventually I had no choice to lie and tell them that I was just pranking my friends and it was a lie which they SOMEHOW believed or I guess rather chose to believe.
When I left home for college and finished by undergraduate, I went to law school in Illinois where I met my boyfriend. For both of our safety I kept this hidden from my parents. In my family, only my older sister knew about it and when I was back home with my boyfriend (who I said was just a friend), my sister (F27) accidentally spilled it to my mom upon which she also told my dad. During this I was out with some of my high school friends and when I came back, I had to endure hours of yelling and crying from my parents. Luckily my boyfriend wasn't there but I just got up, picked him up, and drove back to our apartment near the campus. After avoiding their calls for days I even got a few letters from them. I hadn't told my boyfriend yet and he happened to read one of these stupid letters of theirs. I broke down and he tried to comfort me and I ended up telling him everything. I was planning to actually go and talk things over with them but he advised me not to. After a bit of arguing and crying I ended up listening. I haven't replied/talked to them for 3 months now and I've ripped up most of the letters they've sent until I saw the last one which basically said they will come over next week if I don't respond or talk to them. I plan to go through with the whole cutting contact thing. I've always been very emotionally weak but my boyfriend has goes me improve myself. Above all I wanted to ask whether I was in the wrong for doing to because I'm very conflicted here.

Location: The entire episode takes place in a car, though trouble is faced from the outside, our main characters never exit the vehicle, only enter it in the beginning.
No 9: As seen in the title shot, the empty beer pack stuffed in the middle of the car is called 'Nine O'Clock Boost'
In this wacky episode, Shearsmith plays Gary, a classic British dad who just wants to get things in order. He is about to go on a 14 hour road trip to Germany with his wife and two children. What could possibly go wrong?
(Note: this episode is a homage to family/slapstick comedy/road trip/vacation type flicks.)
The episode begins with Gary, his wife Sarah, and his two children, one called Meghan, a 12 year old girl who just LOVES her phone, and the other called Timmy, a 10 year old who has his coat zipped up and covering his entire face kinda like Kenny from South Park, to the point where we can only see his eyes. This makes for good humour as the other characters try decipher what he says. They have just left a fast food place and are heading for the road.
Gary is worried that things will go wrong, and Sarah has to comfort her husband, giving him a kiss of support. They start the trip, but countless things go wrong. Meghan and Timmy are refusing to cooperate, Timmy needs a piss, their clothes are accidentally dropped out of the window, wild animals attack them but they escape, and they have to escape bumbling irresponsible law enforcement in order to make it to their destination on time.
All the while, Gary keeps spotting an unsettling, mysterious, shadowy man walking down or sometimes in the middle of the road, causing him to keep swerving in absolute fear. Stalking the car at every move. When he tries pointing it out, the other members of the family do not see this man. I think it's incredibly obvious what's going on here, a very bad twist, right. A motif that is tied to this that recurs is the idea of a car rolling backwards, a thought that keeps making its way into Gary's head through multiple things, whether that be Timmy's toy car, a car ad on the radio, or other cars spinning in traffic. It clearly has an effect on him.
The first bomb drops when things begin getting emotional and confrontational. Sarah reveals that throughout all of this, she's been aware of Pemberton's mysterious character all along. Or at least, she'd know Shearsmith would see something like him. Turns out that 5 years ago, Gary recklessly drunk drove back home from work. He had only found out the next morning from a news broadcast that he had hit not 1, not 2, but three people on the way. He went quiet about it and only told Sarah. This trip to Germany wasn't a holiday- it was a trip to a rehabilitation center.
(You could argue that it is a dumb decision to allow Shearsmith to drive in this case, but keep in mind that no one else could remove his license since he was never found as the perpetrator.)
Furthermore, that mysterious man on the road was of course just a manifestation of Shearsmith's guilt blah blah blah you've probably all heard of something like that before.
But there's a kicker to end this one off. The kids are dumbfounded, having only just discovered this information that's not been disclosed to them for their entire lives before this. How could their father be such a monster? Gary starts feeling terrible and feels the need to park on the side of the road or go back, anything to avoid the talks that were to lie ahead. His victims: A businessman, a grandmother and her grandson, a 5 year old. As a surprise to them all, Meghan remembers that she'd once heard about something like that on the radio, the exact victims and everything. The 5 year old actually survived, just with a mangled face for life.
And that's when, for the first time in the entire episode, Timmy unzips his parka, revealing a face they do not recognize underneath. They got the wrong child at the fast food place. And this kid coincidentally has bandages all over his face. Maybe just like how that 5 year old would've.
He grabs the wheel of the car and swerves it into oncoming traffic; it cuts to credits.

So I have just learned I'm pregnant with my second and am looking for options on prenatal care. I have seen Dr Kolkind previously and just felt that the appointments were fairly rushed when I was pregnant with my first, I had no idea what questions to ask and didn't have much really explained to me. I have talked to others and have found people who feel the same. Another Dr at Millcreek ended up delivering my son and I really liked her and asked my family Dr to refer me to her, he did but Millcreek stated they don't switch patients and from the sounds of it the woman I was hoping for may be getting out of the baby game soon. I have a couple friends who have seen midwives and were very happy with their care and I am looking for people's experiences with them or other prenatal care providers in Kelowna.

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Asking for a loved one.
I’ll try to make this as short as possible but it’s a doozy.
Husband left wife after 30+ years. He planned it for months and made sure he was well established before he left.
Wife is not tech savy so Husband has always handled “paying” bills with wifes money.
Wife has always worked days out of the house while husband worked from home so Husband always had access to mail.
Since husband has been gone mail has come in wifes name from debt collectors. We have realised that husband has opened many accounts in wifes name without her knowledge and has been hiding it by keeping mail away from wife.
Husband thinks it’s funny and sent a text to her saying “hahaha have fun with all the debt you don’t even know about yet.”
Husband has also been taking money from wifes bank (NOT A JOINT ACCOUNT) without her knowing for a long time.
Husband also mentioned going after wife for alimony because he has always worked under the table and claims little income on taxes.
We know this has all been planned for a long time. Husband went as far as to try to get wifes mothers will put into his name about a year ago. We are assuming because he wants half of that too.
Husband wants to take half of wifes pension and half of everything. Is he entitled to it? Is there a way to fight it? There is clear evidence of financial abuse. Can this all be done through a family lawyer or will wife need multiple lawyers?
Wife is absolutely beside herself. It has only been a couple weeks and every day she gets a new piece of mail, or more taunting from husband. Not even sure where to start. Any lawyer we’ve spoken to has a full case load and has a 2 week+ wait to be able to start working with her. The debt is piling up and she can’t afford to pay it all. She has to keep her mortgage in good standing to be able to have a roof over her head.
Any advice appreciated!

What do you all think? Would a mystery color be cool? Why would they have disappeared? Self inflicted, or caused by gold? Another color that feared their purpose wasn't great enough and they had to wipe out another color lest they be wiped out when found to be inefficient? (Think greys wiping out Obsidian. Why do you need 2 whole colors committed to not but soldiers and violence? Simply give some grey elites augmentations, like spartans in Halo.)
My example below:
While on small scale people will/would sacrifice (Darrow's dad and his friends, later Eo) but this had almost no chance of real impact. What if all the reds in every mine had sang. What if they all poisoned themselves and left the society with no miners, and an immediate helium shortage after.
It's again odd to me that across most all literature the desire to survive with no chance of actually living doesn't end up with an ultimatum from the victimized party. We'll all die or treat us better. What do we have to lose? Nothing, their lives are crap. What does the victimizer have to lose? A lot. I get why people would make the decision in real life, but even in most fictional works, most authors have the victims still choose this.
I think it would have been interesting if there were a color that no longer existed and only top gold members of the society were even aware of.
The dark revolt had massive consequences for the obsidian, but gold didn't wipe them out. Gold Society is often quite utilitarian. It would have been interesting if they learned this at a cost. I submit Tan as a potential color.
This could go a couple of ways.
First scenario highlights. Perhaps one of Gold's earliest allies and confidantes. Setting up a lot of the sociological ideals and paradigms of "the society" the utilitarian core assigning colors and their purpose. Coming up with the grand story of the gold society and lies they'd feed the other colors. As gold drifted from their original purpose Tan goes full Jones town and wipes themselves off the map. Hoping to cripple their society and lead to its end. This leads to the whites being created. Golds use white to continue on Tan legacy with an even greater zeal and loyalty. White being the chosen color for representation of a clean slate. Because of the negative impacts of all this its why gold does a "reset" on the obsidians rather than wiping them out.
Second scenario highlights. It's odd that yellow is a color, for its similarity and likeness to gold. Many times in flags or on sports teams will claim that the represented color is gold, even when it looks more like mustard yellow. Perhaps Tan were the original doctors/nurses/health professionals. They again go full Jones town when gold shows to have strayed too far from their path. They grow sick of practicing health and medicine under such a system that so cruelly rules the lower colors. They grow sick of dying, or being forced to allow others to die for little to no cause at the hands of their masters, and using their knowledge give themselves a quick and painless death. Leading to yellow being born in the replacement of Tan in the fields of health and medicine.

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I 23 F and my husband -24 M- have been married for 4 years, and have a 3 year old daugther. He was in the military when we got married. We've know each other for 7 years and dated for 4 years before getting married. We had our kiddo in the first year of our married. Flash forward to now. He just transitioned from Active duty to reserves. I just graduated with my bachelors and finally got a job in my field. He had a job as an optician and then quit when he started getting his military disability benefits. For a couple of weeks now, he has been depressed. Mostly with having to deal with kid responsibilities. When he was working and now since he has been off. I kept telling him it was no problem hoping he would just figure out whatever mess he was feeling. However, he has been saying the kid is a lot in turns of the tantrums and everything. She is three. Just today, he said "I need to stop hating you." Which took me by surprise. He said "I've been having regrets lately of not being able to experience anything in my 20s. Like going to college, hoeing around in the military, or getting into other relationships like ive had (which context, ive been his first relationship). He said it would have forced him to grow exponentially than very gradually with me. That the kid has taken away the social life he wanted to experience. What do I do??

THIS IS LONG, TL;DR AT BOTTOM
I (26M) was recently broken up with by my (24F) girlfriend of 6 years right after opening up to her about how I had been struggling a lot mentally recently. Opening up was hard enough for me to begin with, as I was always the “steady Eddy” in my relationship and family, the athlete, reliable etc that people counted on for a lot of things. That's not necessarily the cause, but it happens to be a terrible coincidence.
About 10 weeks ago I had a very long night out and woke up extremely hungover. My brother met up with me that night in our parents car and ended up staying with us for a few drinks, so evidently he left the car.
Of course, I woke up and had a boatload of caffeine so I was already on edge a little bit. My brother was still asleep, so my mom asked me if I could quickly drive my dad to the car so he could take it home. No problem, I hopped in my car and drove there with my dad.
On the way home, completely unprovoked and no anxiety prior, I had an insane panic attack. I’ve never experienced anything like it before. I think I’ve only had one panic attack in my life, and for some reason it left me with a very small amount of social anxiety. During this attack, my hands and feet were completely numb and sweating. At first, I had literally no idea what was going on - I thought it was a legitimate health issue. I ended up taking a bit to drive home, but I made it.
Since then, I've just had heightened anxiety. I've had one other panic attack in the past and I eventually got over the lingering anxiety, so I knew it wasn't permanent.
Mental Health Backstory on her end:
To preface this, we both have anxiety/depression in our genetics unfortunately. In fact, her mom spent some time in the hospital when they were young because of how bad it got.
She also apparently had a ton of anxiety from work recently (she's a nurse, I'm in tech).
On my mothers side of the family, my mom, grandma and great grandma have struggled with anxiety their entire lives, some of them taking antidepressants.
Not fun genes for either of us to have, but we persevered!
Our Relationship:
This is what has been getting to me, our relationship was very healthy. We argued probably 2-3 times per year, we spent the majority of days together - as we lived only a 5 minute drive apart. We were both fully a part of each other's families. All of the normal relationship stuff, we were completely engulfed in it. We had also been looking at engagement rings for a bit and ALWAYS talked about our life together.
When I was about 19 before we were together, I used to drunkenly talk about her all of the time to my friends saying "if she ever gets out of the relationship with her boyfriend (at that time) she's the one I'm going for". When I was graduating high school, I went into her class on yearbook day, grabbed her yearbook and wrote my number in it. Long story short, she ended up single and within a month of that happening, we were together.
The "problems" we had over the years that were semi-recurring:
I didn't suggest enough of our plans. I explained to her a number of times that I'd happily go anywhere, I just don't tend to suggest ideas because sometimes she wanted to, other times she didn't. I've lived by the motto "happy wife, happy life" in that relationship, so I tended to go along with whatever she suggested.
We didn't take enough pictures together. I don't really like being in too many pictures and that bothered her.
We didn't travel together enough. This goes back to the anxiety, I hate flying and haven't done it in almost a decade. However, I have an appointment with my doctor in early July where I'm requesting some "emergencies only" anxiety medication to use for that exact scenario. Note - she went on a number of trips over the years with her closest friends. Furthermore, we had done weekend getaways via car together but those apparently don't count. To add, her friends are hopping on planes at least once per month to go somewhere, I think comparison became the thief of joy here.
I didn't tell her I loved her enough or hug her enough. This one is hard for me because I felt like I definitely told her I loved her a lot. She used to occasionally say "do you even love me", semi-joking but also serious, and I always told her of course I did and even though I may not say it a number of times a day, of course I do. I also did a TON of things for her to show how much I cared (ie. she very rarely had to make a lunch for work, I cooked for her almost every day and we don't even live together) The hugging thing is a bit different, as she's always been extremely affectionate and I never really have been. I truly think it comes down to how I was raised, affection just wasn't a huge part of my childhood. (note, that's not a problem for me or anything, I had incredible family/parents, it just wasn't as prominent as it was in her childhood)
I cared a lot about money and how we could set ourselves up to move out. She had taken 5 trips (two of them by train, three by plane) with her friends in the past year and after the 5th one I asked if she planned on slowing down so she could focus on tackling her student debt and so we could start saving to move out, have a wedding etc. Specifically, I wanted us to be in the position where we weren't renting a home, ESPECIALLY given how much money we were making combined. This part kind of confused me because she was the first one to suggest moving out, but when it came time to adjusting the lifestyle to prepare for it, she didn't like the idea. But, I did use it as a crutch for my anxiety to get out of things sometimes and I did open up to her about that. As an example though, I still went with her to the Gucci store and helped her pick out a very expensive purse to celebrate getting her first real nursing job after graduating. I don't feel that I cared about money (especially given the stage we were in in our lives) more than any of my buddies with girlfriends. I wanted us to be set up well for the coming stages of our lives; they were fast approaching. Furthermore, her friends are catching a plane every weekend and are living with their parents but pay cheque to pay cheque with no prospects of ever leaving unless it's renting
The Situation:
About 7-ish weeks ago, a few weeks after my panic attack, my girlfriend was very adamant that we needed to book a trip together. She said we hadn't been on a "real" trip during our relationship (by real, she means getting on a plane). We were sitting down in her bed on my laptop looking at destinations and flights, but I was incredibly anxious about the whole thing. As we were about to book, I broke down and was fully vulnerable to her for one of the first times in the 6 year relationship. I said that I just don't see myself getting onto a plane right now without some kind of medication to calm me down. On top of that, it would stress me out financially a bit, as I'm a full-time masters student and working full time. Plus, it was during my one-week semester break, so I honestly just wanted to relax.
From that day on, our relationship started going downhill. She said she felt extremely disappointed by the whole situation and she couldn't shake the feeling. We then started only hanging out maybe once per week and it was very bland when we did. A couple weeks after that incident, I slept over at her house and I could tell she was genuinely just not happy at that time.
Brief backstory - despite being 26, my mom still gives me a ton of flack if I sleep at her house. It was rare that I got away with it. But, I did it that night anyway because she always asked me to sleep over but I rarely wanted to have to deal with my mom. I thought it would help show her I'm really trying to get better. She also invited me over the following evening and I obviously went.
After that day, I don't think we saw each other for about 2 weeks. I texted her on a Friday evening and said I just don't feel like she wants to be with me anymore. She picked me up so we could talk, and explained that she felt very disappointed about how we were so close to booking the trip and ended up not doing it. She said she needed a break and I was fine with it, I understood where she was coming from.
During this time, I started seeing a therapist. I found one online who was one of the highest rated in my province and was also extremely experienced in marital/pre-marital counselling so I could tell her about the relationship issues I was having along with my anxiety.
Fast forward about 2 more weeks (last weekend) she texted me saying she was ready to talk and picked me up. She said it's probably best if we just end the relationship for the time being. She explained that she felt she had been disappointed a few times over the years and was bottling a lot of things up. She said she needed time to "find herself again" and didn't know if we would get back together at all in the future or not. Then, we sat there talking in her car for another 30 minutes like things were normal so it really threw me off.
I ended up texting her the next day and asked if I could pick her up because I was confused from the night prior since we talked so normally after the breakup conversation. We ended up talking again, sharing some tears and what not, but I kind of understood why she felt she needed to be alone for a bit, even though she didn't know if we would get back together or not. She said that people do this all of the time and sometimes they come back stronger, but if it was meant to be then we'll get back together. I also told her about how much help I'm getting and how I'm setting a goal to take a vacation when I finish my masters in November. She was noticeably happy and asked a lot about how I was talking to my therapist about improving as a person and a (what I thought was soon to be) fiancé. She asked for all of the details about what we talked about in regards to our relationship and was very happy that I was putting that much effort in.
A couple days ago is when she deleted our photos together, but it came right after she posted an Instagram story while out with a friend who has no stability whatsoever. This friend has been on and off with the same guy (who treats her terribly) for as long as we were together. Not to mention, she sleeps around a ton. I can't help but feel like some of this breakup is being influenced by her friends (specifically this one) wanting her to be single like they are out of jealousy or something. Or, they want her to be flying somewhere once a month with them with no plans for the future. My girlfriend has cried to me in the past because she had been brought to places she didn't want to be because her friend wanted to go for a guy. That friend has also been binge drinking several times weekly for years. The following night, her two friends posted a story of her incredibly drunk in the back of a car with her feet out of the window I'm sure in hopes that I would see it. We're grown ass adults, I can't help but feel like that's just not a cool thing to do to your friend in general? I don't care how drunk you are, in fact I expected her to have a night out with her friends and let loose but posting someone else like that is just insanely stupid to me! To put the icing on the cake, one of my long time buddies from high school decided to go for one of her friends and I gave him substantial warnings about her. Within a year, that relationship was completely over with and she was on to the next.
Neither of us were ever the type one to have one-night stands or get around, so I'm not concerned about anything like that during the breakup. If it happens it happens, but I won't be sleeping with anyone until I've put in all of my effort to saving everything we've built. She's only ever been with me and her ex, while I've had a handful more partners before her - but I've experienced enough in my 26 years to know that there was is only one woman for me.
After all of this, I still couldn't shake the feeling that I felt I was being abandoned during the one time in my entire life I've opened up to anyone and really wanted some support. I'm also just having a hard time processing why it happened and how I can salvage it.
I've texted her once per week since the breaks & breakup happened just telling her that I loved her and wished we were going to XYZ events coming up. I also always say in the message that "You don't have to respond or even read it, I just want you to know". I'm having a hard time deciding if I should continue giving her that weekly text or not, but I really do want her to know how much I care and thought we were a dream team.
I just can't help but feel like we had "problems" that were very fixable and were very minor compared to 99% of couples. Her two best friends have had 5+ boyfriends each in the time that we were together and countless one-night stands. Every time they would break up, I'd hear a story from my girlfriend about how terribly they were treated by these guys and we talked about how lucky we are to have each other. There was no forms of jealousy or self-consciousness between us either, neither of us were bothered when we went out alone with our respective friend groups. I also never for a second worried when she travelled with her friends that she'd cheat or something.
This wraps in with why I can't process the breakup. Aside from the few things we argued about here and there (few times a year) it was an incredibly healthy relationship. I had a great relationship with her friends (despite some of the things I've said about them above) and would often times opt to go out drinking with her group over my group of buddies. I acknowledged my shortcomings as a boyfriend (ie. the affection) with my therapist and she's giving me some help with it. Am I crazy for thinking 1. that I can fix what's happened and 2. Part of this breakup might just be her wanting to see how much I actually care?
Anyway, I might add to this if I remember more important points. I just needed to get some of this off my chest. If you've made it this far into my story, thanks for reading!
TL;DR - Our relationship was very healthy, we rarely argued, the breakup came essentially because I wasn’t ready to travel despite the fact that I’m actively getting help for the first time

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Today I ran into a new problem. I’m migrating an ASA to Palo NGFW, running PAN-OS 11.0. The ASA is currently originating a default route to an internal eBGP neighbor, but only if it has a default route in it’s route table. The current default route on the ASA is learned via BGP from an upstream neighbor. It is not a learned or redistributed route. The statement used is below, where the route map references a prefix-list that matches a default route.
neighbor {ip-address} default-originate [route-map map-name]
Can the Palo Alto firewall perform the exact same thing? I know it can redistribute or share a learned default route, but I don’t know how to originate a new route based on an existing route. The ASA was configured this way so that AS-path and any external metrics would not be passed on into the datacenter, where everything is BGP.
Thanks for any and all advice, it is much appreciated!!

I want to start off by saying that I’m hoping I don’t say anything that comes off as ignorant or offensive, just know that my intention here is just to learn and not to hurt anyone.
I wanted to see what everyone here thinks about people who are not black having dreads. For those who don’t think non-black people should have them; does your opinion change if the person is adopted by black parents and/or grew up in the culture? For those who think it’s alright; where do you think the line between appreciation and appropriation is? I expect the answers to be fairly diverse, but I want to see the different perspectives people have and what the most common opinion is.
Thanks everyone! I look forward to seeing what people think.

Long time lurker, sorry in advance if I’m not using the right terminology. My dad is a narc and my mom is a codependent enabler with narc tendencies. I’m the second of a large family of 7 kids with huge age gaps (parentified since I was 5) and have always been the scapegoat. I’m a big people pleaser and I’m still working on it. I go to therapy. I’ve done them all, EMDR, CBT, etc. I learned about NPD about 4 years ago when my older sister suggested I read a book (malignant self love) and it was rly triggering and I realized my dad is a narc. I was kicked out of my parents at 29 after being forced to live under their roof against my will (not allowed to leave until married but also not allowed to go out and meet people to meet someone to marry). A bit of context as to why I was kicked out : I stopped doing everything for everyone and started coming home around 10 pm. I had already decided I was going to leave before I turned 30 but my dad beat me to it since I was no longer providing him with narc supply. When I moved out, my younger sister cut me off for a year and I realize now she is the golden child. She went to medical school and is now a doctor. She got married young to an appropriate person but she’s always hated me and my life choices and I always felt like I wasn’t allowed to feel around her (like around my dad). I refused to believe she’s a narc cause she was different than my dad in her behaviour. She blew up on me the other day telling me I’m mentally unstable cause I disagreed with something really banal she said. She said that I am unwell and they everyone agrees with her and talk about it when I’m not there. She added that all my siblings secretly think I’m messed in the head and that they had a conversation about it. I brought it up to my older sister and she advised me that what I was told was a lie and that she never had such conversation with my younger sister nor did she ever agree with her. The things she said though hurt a lot and now I wonder if I’m the narcissist.
Is it possible to think others are narcs but you’re the narc all along and you’re the problem ? She gets along great with my parents. Talks to them on the phone daily and is admired by my younger siblings and her friends. Her husband is a good man and treats her like a queen (eg. he never let her pay for anything throughout their relationship and they have been together for a decade). So please clearly like her. The fact that I’m the only one she doesn’t get along with gave me pause. I would like to add that one one ever wants to get in conflict with her and she blows up at everyone but it is considered normal in our family and it is accepted behaviour. Also she is considered in our family to be the closest to my dad in character.
I would like to add that I have been diagnosed with ADHD and PMDD about 5 years ago if that adds any info for context. She is not wrong about the occasionally mentally unstable part.
I’m just looking for advice. I detest my dad and don’t want to be like him but what if I’m not actually self aware and those around me see me the way I see my dad ? Has anyone felt like this ? Any helpful advice ?
Thank you

I've never felt more intune with my body's needs. I am capable of identifying when I'm about to have a flare up, when I actually need pain killers and when I can meditate or distract through the pain. Considering that my Endo was at an extreme peak a few weeks ago (IV drip and black out bedridden, we've all been there.) this feels like a breakthrough.
My endometriosis is fairly severe overall, the combination of Tylenol, naproxen and heat not always being enough. Besides cramps, I have irregular bleeding and migraine auras. I'm powering through and learning how to better understand my body's physical limits. One day at a time, in a good mindset.

Before reading this is a rant, im fairly new to crohns and haven't learned to live with it quite yet. also on mobile so sorry for any spelling errors
I was diagnosed with "severe" crohns and its taking a toll, i really tried being optimistic about it but reality really set in. Ive ALWAYS wanted to join the army since i was a little kid and i was going to enlist within the next 2 years but my crohns diagnosis makes it virtually impossible to (definitely as many here would know) Its weird to be honest because i feel like its such a small thing but its had a huge impact on my mental
When i was diagnosed the doctors kept bringing up my mental health and i didn't really understand why, as ive always tried to be the "tough it out it is what it is" but the constant pain, the lack of energy, and the nagging from people who think they know what its like to have this disease has been bumming me out hardcore.
The month before my diagnosis i stopped eating because all it did was make me have to take multiple BR trips with terrible stomach cramps so when i did eat it was fairly rare and ill admit it i didnt eat very healthy before my diagnosis but afterwards i fixed my diet and i still have family members picking apart what i eat (despite not paying attention) and using the same line when i ask "but do you have crohns, do you know first hand what its like" which is "You have it so i do too" which INFURIATES me because why would you want to even say you have this disease? where its a mental battle to go on a walk, to go to work, to go to a friend's house because you dont want to embarrass yourself by going to the BR a million times because of a flare up? I lose sleep because of the effects of this disease and you think you know whats best for me? these people saying that "i understand what youre going through so i have it too" have done NO research and dont even listen to me when i explain what its like!
all i want is to be normal again, to be able to go into the military, to be able to live life without being worried about a flare up, im tired all the time and its hard to stay happy when i feel like im at my lowest point.
I know things will get better as i learn to live with crohns and hopefully having a sense of community with this subreddit helps because i have nobody in my life who understands what its like (i know, 2013 emo type beat here)

Year: 2030
Day Zero on the ship to Pyemia.
This is Runako Reyes, Nexus corporation scientific advisor.
My superiors have given me the task of determining whether humans can survive on this Pyemia. Droughts have been occurring everywhere on Earth. Food is getting more and more scarce as a result of the soil drying out from the heat. When it rains, it pours heavily, devastating nearby crops.
People have been housed in underground safehouses with oxygen tanks by the government. It is unsafe to breathe the outside air. For years, I have been warning them that it's necessary to act quickly to prevent climate change, but of course they did not listen until it was too late.
As for me, I had no desire to assist them in their investigation into Pyemia just out of retaliation for their years-long disregard for me. However, because I am the most well regarded scientist to the Nexus Corporation and this nation, they insisted that I aid them.
I am only doing this for my wife, For I love her too much to let her die on earth.
XxXxX
Day ten on Pyemia
The air here is dense, but it is clean and breathable. To our disbelief, there is no wildlife here, and the most astonishing aspect of this planet is that it supports life. The inhabitants of this planet resemble humans, yet they have distinguishing characteristics such as horns, tail and sharp teeth.
They have pointed ears, and based on what I've learned, they appear to breed similarly to humans. A gift from the male must be given to the female before any offspring can be conceived. Any type is acceptable but meat is the most valuable.
My colleagues and I have been residing in one of the towns called "Blackpond" for the most of our time. It was the first one ever constructed on Earth. When our spacecraft landed in the town, these creatures were incredibly hospitable. They rushed to bring us inside and feed us and were extremely kind.
Meat dominates their diet. Despite the name, "Spiked Hydro" is a domesticated animal that only attacks when provoked. They exploit it to harvest meat. Typically, the meat is used to prepare stew. The flavor is delicious. It is creamy and sweet, a little difficult to chew, but excellent all the same.

I've been beating myself up a lot lately wondering if I'm the problem. I get told by my parent's I don't realize my own wrongs because I'm a teenager and my brain isn't fully developed so I'm incapable of thinking about other's feelings and I'll realize what a jerk I was as an adult. They also say my emotional reaction to their criticism is amplified, so it's not as bad as I think it is.
I'm almost starting to wonder if I'm the narcissistic one and the thought of that makes me feel bad. I don't want to be like that/seem like that to anyone. I barely talk to my parents to avoid messing up and giving them a reason to be mad at me, but they still tell me I'm acting like a bratty teenager if I avoid them to keep the peace.
I try to tell myself I'm not the problem and the way I'm treated isn't fair, but then it makes me wonder if my it's even valid to feel like that due to my age. It also makes me feel like I could be narcissistic then by telling myself I'm not the problem when I might be.
After my parents yell at me/are rude to me they say they do it because they care, and I don't know if that's actually a thing. I get told I'll yell and be mean to my future kids because it's part of being a parent by my parents, but I can't even imagine wanting to hurt my future kids feelings intentionally, so that's why I doubt it.
I feel unloved and hated by my parents, and I'm tired of them making me feel like sh!t everyday, but I still can't come to the conclusion of who is in the wrong. I really want to go no contact with them as an adult after everything they've done to me, but part of me wonders if that would be spoilt brat behaviour and I should just forgive them and let them parent me how they want.
I don't know if any of that makes sense to anyone, but I tried to explain it the best I could. Thank you for reading!

Hey to everyone viewing, I’m looking for a loving relationship with somebody around my age range (preferably same age or 1-3 years older)
I think we should learn more about each other in dms, but I’ll give a quick description

• African American
• massive nerd whose in love with computers, programmer
• I usually love playing video games and talking abt them (seriously I’m looking for games to play please give me suggestions if ur interested 💀)
• I’m also a massive sonic fan.
• I used to be a wrestler (in middle school and HS) and I still work out.
• I joke around a lot so feel free to send memes without warning

You can either message me on Discord or Reddit if you want to (preferably on discord since I’ll respond faster) if your interested hmu whenever
Discord: kaiser#0553

Hello to everyone here !
It was my birthday today but it feels so sad inside of myself between so many conventional but nice people around… It’s very late here and I can’t rest because I feel really lonely …
I am turning my F 57 years old today and I feel so lonely and sad inside … despite the hundreds of nice people that I intersected somehow in my journey who wished me happy birthday on social media … But I am wondering why I am still feeling so sad today…
I should tell you that I am reading your posts on here from longtime ( more than two years !)… I learned from you all guys and that helped me a lot to survive honorably in the last few years. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences. I really appreciate that ! You are so incredible persons and I wish you from heart all the best of luck in your lives !
In the meantime I wonder why so many people with wonderful souls are struggling so much … Which is their real problem including mine ? I understand that it’s about so many things … the mentality, the commodity, the lack of self investment, the big expectations, the financial status, the mindset, the emotional immaturity, the past influences …
Considering all of these things I think sincerely that any of those are not irreparable if there is a big desire for grow and be happy if it’s a little bit of willingness for changing the personal story.
I thought a lot of posting here my thoughts or not… and here I am with no expectations and trying to vent my feelings about being alone in a very weird world we are living all with so many challenges around that affects our lives and makes everything so difficult to bear in our souls… Everything gives magnitude to the sadness and loneliness…
I wonder Why is it so difficult to find a match nowadays with all the resources we can use ?… Why people love so much to show a fake self in a simple interaction if they are searching for a partner in complicity ? Why to be honest and sincere became a default to a person?
Thank you so much for reading this and for understanding my sadness.
Edit : If you resonate with me Please just feel free to DM me if you want to talk to me more ! If not, just please ignore me !
I would love to meet some good genuine and open minded friend and share more of our thoughts, life experiences and feelings.
We never know what could happen further !

I live in a small town in Alberta and last winter when i first moved here and needed portfolio work, I offered my town a free video with the hopes of working for them this summer. Fast forward to now, my production company is getting hired to do a year in review video and a few tourism videos. Funny enough my girlfriend recently got an intern position for the town in communications and has seen the budgets they have for videos. Last time the town hired someone to do a year in review video it was way longer than this one would be but my girlfriend found out they paid $15,000 for it, this time they only have a remaining budget of $3,000 or less. We were going to propose $5,000 for the video but in our most recent meeting he let us know that he reached out to a videographer friend of his who is going to college and he quoted $2,300 so if we can do it in that range. It was also mentioned that last time they did a year in review video they paid $5,000 which isn’t true, it was $15,000. I know that their budget is tight right now but he has a budget of at least $3000 for the video.
Unfortunately we do need the money as we are still new but we aren’t sure if we try and fight it for $2,750 or just take the $2400? We are a two man team with plenty of high end gear and this shoot will be a few days of filming. It is worth mentioning that another department for the town is hiring us for tourism videos, so we could give a bit of a deal since there is more work. l am not sure what the best course of action is, any suggestions?